2020 will surely be a year to remember. No need to list all the unfortunate events and emotions that we have witnessed and felt (and the year is not over yet…), but we can all agree it has been a roller coaster ride.
As a teacher, I have had a hard time physically saying goodbye to my class in March and starting the school year again in August without being able to hug them in the mornings when they come in. It’s been traumatic for me emotionally and taken a toll on me physically as well (I’ve lost hair, suffered from shingles, gained a few pounds from stress eating, and cried so, so ,much).
As a result of this, mainly – and many other added reasons -, I have not felt like picking up my camera half as much as I normally do, let alone any of my film cameras. And it makes me so sad it hurts… Don’t get me wrong, I have shot often (after all, #ishooteveryday, right?) but you have to understand I DO shoot almost every day, in normal circumstances. However, apart from my digital camera, I also do use my film cameras very much, especially my beloved Pentax 67ii or my cheap Canon AE1. And I have barely touched those at all this year.
Cathy Sly has a recent post talking about the struggle to pick up a camera lately. Rereading her words gives me hope and the reassurance that I need to be gentle with myself. I will find a way to get to film again. I know I will. But how? I really do not know. Do you all have any ideas? I’d be grateful if you sent some my way.
In the meantime, I look for inspiration in the amazing film community on Twitter (#believeinfilm) and some of my film groups on Facebook. I try to read as much as I can and also make notes on my phone of what I’d like to try to shoot and how to do it. And I wait, for this too shall pass.
Please tell me it will…